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Neon Blue
04:19
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Sawdust on the floor
Wooden tables
Cigarettes put out in plastic cups
No matter how much I drink in here
It never seems to get me drunk
The bathroom in the back
Is out of service
Go take a piss out in the parking lot
I used to run this town when I played for beer
Didn’t care if you loved me or not
Now you don’t come around
Say it feels different
Like something bad has moved in you
I feel gone, I feel sad
I wanna hold you like i used to do
When you used to be mine, baby
Wrapped up in neon blue
Torn up old blue jeans
Gambling machines
We’d go two step when I ran out of change
No matter how much I’d step on your feet
You’d never know by seeing your face
Now you won’t come and dance
The moves feel different
Like I forgot how to count ‘one and two’
I feel gone, I feel sad
I wanna hold you like I used to do
When you used to be mine, baby
Wrapped up in neon blue
Heartbreak, old songs
Talking to strangers just to get along
One more last call, then it’s always time to go
Funny how dark it seems
Funny how dark it seems
Funny how dark it seems without you
To make that neon glow
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2. |
Whatever Helps You
03:10
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Come to the window
Let the night paint you blue
You sparkle in starlight
And it tears me in two
When you don’t see me
Call it my acquiesce
Or whatever helps you
Get to sleep, i guess
I was just waiting
Now i’m just a fool
I must be crazy
Wanting you like i do
So when you go listening
For my soft silhouette
It’s just coyotes weeping
And the wind from the West
Count the cracks in the ceiling
Sing to angels above
Cry under the moonlight
Find a stranger, make love
Drink it all until empty
Do it all to excess
Or whatever helps you
Get to sleep, i guess
Count the cracks in the ceiling
Sing to angels above
Cry under the moonlight
Find a stranger, make love
Drink it all until empty
Do it all to excess
Or whatever helps you
Get to sleep, i guess
Whatever helps you
Get to sleep, i guess
Whatever helps you
Get to sleep, i guess
Come to the window
Let the night paint you blue
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3. |
Going Nowhere
03:35
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I get bored, I talk shit
I’m getting tired of doing it
I get so damn frustrated
When things don’t go my way
But I’m always starting fires
Just to walk away
I don’t know what to say
But here I am talking every day
I’m so sick of talking
It’s all we ever seem to do
I don’t know, what about you
Spinning round and round and round
Every single day
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Trying to turn the corner
But it feels so far away
Going nowhere, going nowhere
It’s so hard to change
You get hurt, I take the blame
But when you get better,
I still stay the same
I get hung up and self destruct
it all lands on you
I don’t know what to do
Spinning round and round and round
Every single day
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Trying to turn the corner
But it feels so far away
Going nowhere, going nowhere
It’s so hard to change
Spinning round and round and round
Every single day
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Trying to turn the corner
But it feels so far away
Going nowhere, going nowhere
It’s so hard to change
You get bored, when I talk shit
You’re getting tired of hearing it
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4. |
Driving Around
03:48
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In the town where I was born
Right across from that old church
Used to keep my eye on Mary
While she’d shine behind the birds
Now the moon is in her window
And the glow has hit you right
Like a cigarette stuck in my pocket
Waiting for a chance to light
When the lights come on
And the sun goes down
I’m gonna lay you down
In the backseat of whatever I’m driving
Driving around
Up ahead is the old skate park
Where i used to run around
Couldn’t ride for shit to save my life
I’d pretend if you were around
Now the dogs are getting called to
And the kids are running up the drive
Honey we got nowhere else to be
At least not for tonight
Cause when the lights come on
And the sun goes down
I’m gonna lay you down
In the backseat of whatever we’re driving
Driving around
Call me old fashioned
But how did I never think of this until now
This house is all we’ve seen for days and days
Why don’t we go and drive around
Cause when the lights come on
As the sun goes down
I’m gonna lay you down
In the backseat of whatever we’re driving
Driving around
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5. |
Hate This Town
03:43
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Wake up too late
How the hell did I get back home
Lipstick stains, ashtray
Can’t bear to throw anything of yours out
Buying cocaine outside the circle K
Who cares if it kills me anyway
What’s the point
In staying clean for Christmas
Meet up, same old joint
Drink until I feel like talking
It’s hard to feel, so what’s one more pint
Either way, it’d be nice to feel something
I don’t wanna hate this town
I’m just trying to keep my head down
What’s the point?
When everybody knows your business
I see him turn the lights off in our house
The hell am I supposed to do now?
Goddamn it, I hate myself
Goddamn it, I hate this town
Strip malls, local bank
Street lined up with neon crosses
Fuckin Christians, to be frank,
Think they’re doing everyone a favour
People seem to love god fearing men
The rest of us are on our own, I guess
What’s the point
Of screaming out into nothing
I see him turn the lights off in our house
The hell am I supposed to do now?
You said it was forever,
but what now?
Goddamn it, I hate myself
Goddamn it, I hate this town
I don’t wanna hate this town
Just trying to keep my head down
But what’s the point?
What’s the point?
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6. |
Love A'int Enough
04:08
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I thought I saw you
In the back of my car
You were combing your hair in the mirror
I was falling apart
But the moment faded
I was alone at the wheel
Now every day I’m trying to forget
How that feels
With everything that I’m reading
Combined with what I ignore
I know I’m only making it harder on myself
But I can’t do it anymore
I’m sorry to say it
But your love ain’t enough
It ain’t gonna fix this crooked old world
It ain’t gonna lift us up
Love ain’t enough
It’s a beautiful thought but when it’s said and done
It’s just something that we made up
Love ain’t enough
Love ain’t enough
When it comes to times of trouble
I’ve got nothing but dust and my dreams
I wish I had an answer that wasn’t so
Tainted by what I’ve seen
I thought I saw you
It’s what I wanna see the most
But you’re nowhere to be found
I’m making love to your ghost
Now the river is rising
We disappear among the mire
No, your love ain’t enough
To save a world that’s already on fire
Love ain’t enough
It’s a beautiful thought but when it’s said and done
It’s just a word that we made up
Love ain’t enough
Love ain’t enough
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7. |
Everywhere I Used to Be
03:34
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I have never spoken to anyone
The way that you speak to me
Don’t it make you so sad
The kind of thing you’d see on somebody’s TV
It’s all misery and motels for days
I kept thinking I’ll be on my way
I’m out here chasing tides, losing money and pride
What the hell am I doing anyway
Goodbye, sweet release
When you see tail lights leave the driveway
Honey, please don’t make a scene
I’m going everywhere, baby
Everywhere I used to be
Like the dead eyes of the waitress at the diner
I’ve been checked out now for awhile
Call me with a quarter, while I wait for my order
Better than fighting with you all over town
I have never held anyone up so high
Never thought you’d let me down
At least I’ve got my peace, I’m my own worst enemy
Never felt so alone as I do now
Goodbye, sweet release
When you see tail lights leave the driveway
Honey, please don’t make a scene
I’m going everywhere, baby
Everywhere I used to be
Darkness at the edge of the barstool
I keep looking up and thinking you’ll be there
Ah but tonight ain’t my night,
There’s no salvation in sight down here
Goodbye, sweet relief
When you see tail lights leave the driveway
Honey, please don’t make a scene
I’m going everywhere, baby
Everywhere I used to be
I’m going everywhere, baby
Everywhere I used to be
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I’ve played in motel bars, dingy lounges with dirty floors
Queen of the one star room
Every night it seems I am living someone else’s dream
Can I have one too
Every night I sleep on flowered sheets
And I think of you
I wanna be the underdog
Up against the wind
Shooting at the moon
Knowing if I bring it down
That it’ll rise again
I’ve dressed in fancy clothes and hung out where all the money goes
But the talk, it is cheap
They only tell you what they think you’re gonna wanna hear
I wanna hear the truth
I don’t mind getting scraps, the more I took the less I had
I had it all with you
I would trade it all now if I could for that motel room
With a view
To be the underdog
Up against the wind
Shooting at the moon
Knowing if I bring it down
That it’ll rise again
I hear the echo bouncing off the walls
It sounds a lot like me
All the other voices sound so sweet but honey, they don’t know
Who I used to be
I wanna be the underdog
Up against the wind
Shooting at the moon
Knowing if I bring it down
That it’ll rise again
I wanna be the underdog
Up against the wind
Shooting at the moon
Knowing if I bring it down
That it’ll rise again
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9. |
Horse Named Nothing
03:36
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I’ve been keeping up late with your picture
Tore the back right off of the frame
My fingers on the film, painted in blue
June twenty-five, still signed with your name
Still wearing out holes in my boots
Still tangled up blue over you
The mess I have made, the shape I am in
All covered in misery, what can I do
When I get to the gates of heaven
Is there a long list of sins and your name
Do I ride into hell on a horse named nothing
If I’m going down for my sins all the same
Just sold that old wagon we dented
Rocks kicked up, scratched off the paint
Your head on my shoulder, the wheel in my hands
I swore when you left me, I’d never drive again
When I get to the gates of heaven
Is there a long list of sins and your name
Do I ride into hell on a horse named nothing
If I’m going down for my sins all the same
Going through pictures
Of coffee cups and couch cushion stains
I guess somehow, now we’re even
Or even to you, anyway
I’ve been keeping up late with your picture
Tore the back right off of the frame
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10. |
Let You Down
03:09
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I guess I felt a difference
Spokane to Crow’s Pass
You had your head out the window
I had half a tank of gas
Did I let you down,
I tried my best
I was trying to get home
To whatever was left
We got done with Winnipeg
Drove through the night to Montana
You wouldn’t say a thing
I could tell you didn’t wanna
Why in slow motion
Does goodbye feel so blue
What am I gonna do without you
Why in slow motion
Does goodbye feel so blue
What am I gonna do without you
We split to separate rooms
The last night in Alberta
I knew I needed to say it
You knew I was never gonna
Then the van broke down
While we headed home west
We were trying to get back
To whatever was left
Why in slow motion
Does goodbye feel so blue
What am I gonna do without you
Why in slow motion
Does goodbye feel so blue
What am I gonna do without you
What am I gonna do without you
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I go to sleep
With prairie town dreams
Gas station postcards
VLT machines
The moan of the whistle
Tracks where they took out the trees
Broke down reservations
The dirt under my feet
Wheat, wide open plains
Take me home again
I'm gone now, more than I ever thought I'd be
Yeah, I guess that's something
Yeah, I guess that's something
My neighborhood
First stretch of concrete
You were up Lakeview Crescent
I was up Thirty-Seven Street
Only one restaurant
Bar around the back side
We'd never get busted
When we'd sneak inside
Gone, my younger days
I was wilder then
I'm older now, older than I ever thought I'd be
Yeah, I guess that's something
Yeah, I guess that's something
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If I wait, you'll call and I'll answer
It's the same thing every time
Call it quits then you get bored of it
Then wanna see me later on tonight
You'd think I'd have kept my distance
There's no angels or obvious signs
So I'll play the up and down, I guess
Until you change your mind
Cause I'm just sad
Sad all the time
Yeah, you used to hate it
Im sad all the time
There's a church, Chinese food and liquor
All pressed up to the same strip
Like every Western town, I guess
Why change it if it still seems to fit?
Goddamnit, ain't there somewhere
Better for a fool like me?
Instead of watching those lights go down
Somewhere down Sixty-Three
Cause I'm just sad
Sad all the time
Yeah, you used to hate it
I was sad all the time
But maybe I'm tired of waiting
And maybe I'm tired of crying
When everything's on your watch, darlin'
But I can't read the time
Cause I'm just sad
Sad all the time
Yeah, you used to hate it
I was sad all the time
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Mariel Buckley Calgary, Alberta
Unapologetically genuine, wry, and soft-hearted - Mariel Buckley has planted her flag firmly as a songwriter who’s in it for the long haul. She aims to find herself squarely on the fringes and exactly where she belongs: singing and writing songs for the underdog. ... more
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